Failure is not failure in essence, its success in hiding

Whenever we are angry,we tend to let it out in a creative way because it helps us channel our energy for something good. It all seems so cool when you see your favorite fictional characters such as Klaus from TVD make such wonderful images while grieving and feeling lonely. With Klaus, I can actually relate. I know what it feels like to feel alone in a crowded room, to resort to evil more often to overshadow my loneliness and to convert my remorse into something useful. But that is where I draw the line. That is because I chose a different means to unleash my feelings to the world. I chose writing as my thing.

You know, I used to think that all kinds of art are the same in essence and that one who can write, can paint just as well. I used to keep a sketchbook, a charcoal pencil and an eraser with me waiting for inspiration to hit me but it never did. Then one day, when I was in one my fits, I took it out and waited for an hour, drawing aimlessly, waiting for it to click; for some connection to form but it never did. I was sitting on the terrace, in the company of a lizard. Neither one of us bothered the other. I was playing 'In my veins' by Andrew Bellum and that is when I realized that it would not happen. Writing comes naturally to me. I don't have to force myself to write. I write to get out of my mood swings but this is not what I wanted to do when I was hurt or angry or sad. No! I wanted to write and bake. I even tried googling some stuff but all I could draw was an imperfect oval-ish circle covered with blackish surroundings. It was an embarrassing outcome of what I had originally intended to make. 

But you know what did happen? I got a new topic to write on! So I guess that when they say, everything happens for a reason, they are absolutely correct. Besides, that sketch book would serve my younger sister better because she loves sketching and painting, something I can just admire.

THE POWER OF OBSERVATION IN A VOLUNTEER

When you go somewhere to volunteer, you think that just after saying two words, your work is complete: WE ARE HELPING AND MOTIVATING PEOPLE. Thank you all, it was nice meeting you. But that is not how it is. That is not how we go about it. And that is what I learned in a training session before volunteering. I believe that this was the first place where I got the true feeling of volunteering: Family Education Service Foundation. And that is not entirely because of the projects we did but the training we received from our facilitator. Whenever we are planning to venture into a new business, we plan it beforehand. We consider all the pros and cons before entering the battlefield. Why? Because that is when our money and respect is at stake, so when it comes to volunteering, why don't we? Well, first, our money stays in our pockets and respect? We are earning that through volunteering itself. Why put any more efforts than we already are. What we don't consider is that just by saying that we need to help and motivate people, we are not actually doing it. We need to understand what they need and then devise a proper plan to give it to them. In these training sessions, we learned how to do that. We learned how we could be a good leader. We learned that a leader does not need followers. We learned how to acknowledge our own mistakes. We learned how our best work can turn into trash in just eight minutes. We learned how to work as a team. We learned how to raise funds. We learned the benefits of asking. We got to know why we should praise someone. In short, we not only learned how to become a good volunteer, but also, how to become a good person. To be a good volunteer, we need to learn to respect people. We need to learn how to save money and spend it efficiently. We need to earn people's trust. We need to take charge in a way that nobody feels left out. We need to realize our teams abilities and use them in the way best suited to the situation. And for all that to happen, we need to see. As Robert Baden-Powell rightly said: "If you make listening and observation your occupation, you will gain much more than you can by talk"

REALIZATION: THE KEY TO SUCCESS

Life is a very foul thing. It bewitches your mind and ensnares your senses in such a way that you forget that you ever had it. It can brew up the world's most powerful forgetfulness potion and make you drink such that we need something even more powerful to bring us back to our senses (My apologies, but it's coming from a die-hard HP fan). You start expecting too much and in your wish to get more, you forget to enjoy what little you have. You start comparing yourself with those above you and it starts giving you inferiority complex. That is when you need to stop for a moment and ask yourself one simple question.
Is it worth the stress? The pain?
Then comes an even more important question: Are you happy?
In life, there will come a time when you won't even know what you want for yourself, let alone what your loved ones need. You will be stuck in a web of despondency and anxiety.That is when these obvious questions come in handy. That is when you ask yourself one-on-one.
Is this really what you want? A friend told me that when such a moment occurs, get a pen and paper and write everything down so that you can refer to it every time you stumble.I believe that is the point where your heart will respond honestly. That is when you will get the answer that was there all along, just waiting for rediscovery. And, that is the turning point you need to lead a successful life.
 Money does not mean success! Success is when you enjoy what you get and your wish to get more does not overpower your need for happiness. This realization is the key to your success, I believe.