An epiphany about life

One anger filled moment is enough to ruin everything you worked so hard for, years or months at end. It's a sad reality and the worst part is that the people you love face the worst of it, not because they are wrong, but because they are the only ones you can release all your anger on. Whether you blame the circumstances or something else; at the end, it's just your mind. Life has not given us much to be happy about, either you whine about it or let go. For me, the former alternative seems more attractive than the latter. But, with whining comes anger, anger at the lack of fulfillment of dreams as well as hurt at your loved ones not meeting your expectations.

"If something goes wrong, fix it if you can. But train yourself not to worry. Worry never fixes anything-Ernest Hemingway

The solution to my problem is to stop thinking about it, to stop caring, to get on with life and that is exactly what I cannot do and every time I don't do it, it comes back to me full force, making it difficult for me to survive. You see, life has a way of hitting back at you in a way that it knocks you senseless. You get disoriented and unsure of yourself and the surroundings. All the sins that you have committed come back at you in a way that has the most effect on you. That is when you feel really bad about it and for all the wrong reasons. The reason that you should feel that way is there, hidden beneath the plethora of other, apparently more important reasons and you start feeling the way you should've initially.

By studying history, I have drawn one very important conclusion. After every peak comes the fall, one which brings you back where you started or close. If that holds true for all the good things that happen to you, it should definitely hold true for all the things that depress and weaken you. After all the wrong that would've happened, the time for right should begin. But the question here is, would it have the same effect? You see, every time you do something wrong, you fall lower in the eyes of those around you. In order to rise again, you have to make a lot of efforts. The question here is, even if you have changed, are you ready to go to all the lengths required to get back into their good graces? How long until the peak arrives? Would it be too late to make amendments then? To set things right?

Isn't it the same with the rulers of a country, only on a bigger scale? They have caused so many problems that the time to make amendments has far gone. They no longer deserve a second chance. The only thing our rulers have provided us with is an example. It is to never get to a point from which there is no turning back. As for those who start anew, they need to make sure that they don't reach that point, that our peak comes before that of the people's capacity to bear, or it might be too late..