Musings of a procrastinator

My way of life is not exactly ideal and I choose to believe that if I had been more responsible, punctual and a perpetual time saver, things would've gone differently. In fact, I am sure that they would have. But because that is not how it is and will be any time soon, I am at a loss, and a huge one I might add. People might believe that procrastination is not related to the problem where we have high expectations but for me, they are the same, so is laziness.. It would be correct to say that mostly, even inspiration fails to work on me. Being a social person, I interact with people a lot. Some fail to inspire me but some have a great effect on me. Of all those people, one inspired me a lot. That person is not an old friend of mine but his habits had a great effect on me, so much so that I wanted to merge some of them in my life but call it laziness or procrastination, I failed to do it. Even my family failed to rouse a positive effect in me when it comes to saving time. A big question that crossed my mind during my musings the other day was that why is it so easy to pick up bad habits and not good ones? You just have to see someone who inspires you doing something wrong and that is a reason sufficient enough to do the same thing but when you see someone doing something right, you appreciate it but never get down to doing it. The biggest example would be my own elder sister, a perpetual hard worker who used to excel in everything she put her heart and soul into. But she, like every other human, had some bad qualities like lazing around, using social networking websites very often and watching a lot of movies. Now which activities do you think I chose to pick up from her? Not the dedication, not the ability to work hard. Yes, you guessed right! Lazing around, using face book and of course watching television. Now, my day doesn't pass without watching television. In fact, I have to watch around 2 hours of television a day or I can't study. That is even worse than what my sister used to do. When she had work, she would be very focused but not me. I have a CIE examination in exactly three days and here I am, writing on this blog as if I have a lot of time left to study. If nothing else convinced you, this surely would. You ask life to give you short-term happiness, you get it. But if in return, you lose the long-term happiness, is it worth it then? I would like to believe that it is not. Living the moment, whatever it is that you are doing is how life should be. Merely surviving is not the only part of life. It's just a phase. It passes. In order to live life, even when you are studying, do it in a way that you don't feel deprived. Negotiate with yourself. Treat yourself when you manage to fulfill a goal because that, and only that is a life well-lived. All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy but all play and no work makes Jill a grumpy, lazy person. The day I join that in my life will be the day I succeed.